Wow, Right?! Meet Susan! She is a very unique, striking, kind of beauty! The thing is she does NOT see it! Susan is the exact purpose of The Everyday Beautiful Project. She was so nervous about being featured she even tried to back out a few times! I wouldn't allow it though, because I knew that if she were forced to see her beauty the way I could see it...her perception of herself could change! Even if just a little, this is my purpose.
Susan grew up with a great childhood with a very supportive family. However, from a very young age she struggled with anxiety and depression. Not really knowing why, she just always felt she had a very hard time making friends and opening herself up. She still does in her mind. I was pretty surprised actually by the fact that she is so severely lacking in self confidence! When I first met Susan I actually thought she seemed almost intimidating because she seems to have it all together. Isn't it funny how we just never really know the emotions others feel inside!
In school, Susan was made fun of a lot for being tall and having glasses. As she got old enough to date she never felt pretty or desirable. Susan says, "I did however marry an amazing man who thinks I am beautiful. I just wish I felt it. Brad was my first boyfriend. He is the only man who has told me that I’m beautiful or sexy or that he loves me. It’s hard to look past all the crap thrown on you for 20 years and believe what one man says though. When I’m next to him I feel complete, and wanted. But the moment he leaves my side I feel so alone again."
After having her third child, Susan started experiencing worsening depression and chronic pain. The doctor had her on so many medicine's she was sleeping a lot more than anyone should. She couldn't even drive more than a half an hour without needing to pull over and move around to wake herself up. Susan continues, "Then the headaches were on top of all that. I would have headaches for weeks at a time without letting up. Some days just painful, others with migraines and in bed for days. I heard about a NUUCA Chiropractor in Salt Lake that could maybe help me get relief from the headaches. He started my journey to less pain. He diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. With his adjustments and help from some supplements and a new prescription I became a new person. I went from a daily pain scale of an 8 or 9 on a scale of 10 to a 2 or 3. Over the years it has gotten better. I have days where I almost feel normal now and not in pain and then have flare ups that remind me that it’s still there. I still could sleep 12 hours a day and be tired. The fatigue is still hard, but I can now drive long distances without getting out every half hour."
Part of the Fibromyalgia can be a decreased amount of strength, for Susan it is in her hands. "That was really hard on me. I love horses. Always have. Even owned a couple for a few years. Unfortunately I like horses with spunk and now I can no longer trust myself to have the strength to hold on if I needed to. A quick turn, or jump, or if the horse gets spooked, and off I would go. My life long passion of having a ranch full of horses has been given up. I will forever remember the feeling of galloping across an open field, feeling free and at peace, like everything in life is perfect. No pain, no loneliness, no sadness, no feeling ugly. Just the wind in my face and the strength of the horse running beneath me. That is